This coming Monday, 6th March 2017, is the third anniversary of my father’s death and I miss him. I miss him on two counts. The little me wants to hear his voice, look into his warm brown eyes, see his contagious smile and hear his Dad jokes. She is sad. So sad. At the same time, she knows she was lucky that her dad lived so long, so she appreciates what she had. The spiritual me knows that my dad is with me most of the time, but she is frustrated that the communication is still so patchy, so subtle that it goes unnoticed. Sure, she knows that if she saw and heard her Dad every day, it would distract her from the task at hand, but she still wishes he could be seen and heard when she calls him.
On Monday, I am launching the ebook of my memoir in honour of the anniversary of my father’s death and for that reason, I am going to start the day in a very special way. I have booked a mediumship reading for myself at the precise time of his death. 6:30 am. I am hoping it will energise me because this book launch has been a real drag. I feel I have been repeating myself constantly. I fear I am boring people to tears. I have to twist my arm to keep going, but then I know that most authors do when they are in book launch mode.
In the past week, I have been recording a series of small videos that talk about aspects of my life that I believe will throw an interesting light on my memoirs. For some reason, this morning, at my local coffee shop, I pulled out some notes I made during a mediumship reading in January 2011. My notes talked about me writing an ebook. They talked about me being interviewed on many different podcasts. She also said the spirit world wanted me to make more videos. I had only just made my first video about my book about holistic slimming. I remember the medium apologising for making predictions. She swore she never did this. She was a medium. Not a psychic. I remember that at the time, I didn’t have an iPad so what she said seemed exotic and a little far off. Oh my God, how much has changed in six years.
Psychics and mediums have really enhanced my life. They have given me hope when I was losing hope. They have confirmed my path when I thought I was only daydreaming. They have given me the courage to walk away from difficult situations. I owe them so much. But I need to say: never in a million years, did I anticipate becoming one myself. Mind you, I never thought I would become an author either. My forte in school was science. I was crass at French.
All I can say today is never say never. Life is full of surprises. Look at me. Lawyer turned author and psychic, living abroad and home schooling kids. My life is a series of plot twists.
(C) Ange de Lumiere 2017