What interesting times. My crowdfunding campaign is done, with the disappointing results that happened. I have had the book edited by a copy editor. I designed the book cover for the paperback and ordered the copies I needed to honour my commitment to my supporters (awesome people). Now what?
I admit I was floating a little. After the intensity of the crowdfunding campaign, I was wondering what I am supposed to do. So, I took some time out. I work intuitively. I do have a plan but then the Universe changes everything, because the Universe has a much broader view than I do. And that’s ok because I am flexible. I like to think of myself as Mrs Incredible. I mean we have a lot in common. She is incredible. I am incredible. Who else manages to write, self publish and run a crowdfunding campaign on half an hour per day? Most authors have hours to fiddle with and waste it on social media. I don’t have that luxury so I need to be super focused. She has three kids and is a mum at home. I have four kids: two near adults with autism (and highly complex needs) and I home educate my younger two plus run a house. I am a little padded in places. She has awesome broad hips… She has a secret identity and… I have a secret identity.
I know this book was ordered by Heaven so it’s not all up to me. And if I am honest, this can be super annoying at times because, I have no control. And I like to be in control. This is the way I was raised. You had a plan. You had a career. You worked hard. And then things worked according to plan. Not with me. I went as far as the “worked hard” and then everything went out the window. That’s when when I was robbed of my identity of corporate lawyer and embraced my career as spiritual lawyer. That’s where I relinquished my power to the Universe so the Universe took over. It took me down the garden path of self publishing my first non fiction book, the Journey of the slim Soul when I had no interest in writing a book about slimming. And frankly I couldn’t not see anything spiritual in slimming or helping others slim.
Fast forward seven and a half years and I am back on the scene, after baby number four who was also ordered by heaven. If I had not had her, I would probably be further down my author’s career but the Universe had other plans. See what I mean? So I have had to learn to read signs. I have had to follow my intuition. I have had to build faith. And frankly, that’s the hardest thing I have been asked to do. Yet, I need to say, it is worth it. And I want to say, if you find yourself in a similar place to mine, don’t give up. The Universe may seem like it is tossing you up in the air like a bit of salad, then it might seem like it is breaking your toys, but believe me, it knows what it is doing.
I am on the brink of something. I can feel it. But it’s not all down to me.
(C) Ange de Lumiere 2017