Today I feel a bit like a woman who has just given birth. I birthed this blog. I completed the blogging challenge. Now what do I do with this baby? Do I feed it every day? Do I carry it around in a sling with me everywhere? What I am supposed to do?
As you all know, the baby is not the blog. The baby is my memoirs. It is in its second solid draft phase. So maybe it’s not born yet. Let’s say it I am half way through my pregnancy, to keep the metaphor. I am planning my birth. I have birthed books before but this is the first time that I am doing so with a bang. It is the first time I plan a crowdfunding campaign and to me it is both exciting and terrifying. What if no one turns up? What if no one funds my book?
My fears are not entirely irrational. I have baggage. I self published a book in 2009 and only just got my money back. It took ages and it was often excruciating. I remember a book signing at my local bookshop where no one turned up except for my husband and kids and I swore I would never do this again. Still, the experience brought me much. It enabled me to meet some beautiful women who struggled with their weight and I was able to help them on their journey of self love. It was a huge learning curve in terms of pulling a book together in less than six weeks. Looking back, I still don’t know how I did it. It got me learning about marketing in a way that felt aligned with me, by engaging with people rather than pushing sales. And it also landed me an amazing agent. It helped me up level to professional status. My agent raved about my book and how professional looking it was. But in the end it didn’t sell. Publishers were interested but nothing happened. I was so disappointed.
Six months after I published this first book, I joined the race for life. I had started running at the time of writing my book and I was super excited to make a difference. One of my aunts had just died of cancer and my godmother was battling cancer too. I ran my first 5K with tears running down my cheeks. My heart was full of an urge to make a difference. Again, my husband and kids cheered me, literally on the side line. And….. Nothing. I only managed to raise £40. I was too ashamed to even mention I had done the race for life. Not even my own mother donated for my campaign. Talk about a flop.
But this is the past. Today I am a different person. So much has happened in the past seven years. For one, I have embraced the work of Esther Hicks and Abrahams. I understand the law of attraction. I know that when you want to do something, you need to first work on your mindset. This involves being very courageous. Being willing to open the cupboards and let the skeletons out. Also, I have learnt more about business and marketing. How important it is to create a buzz around what you do. Not artificially. I get excited about my offer because I now know it is a gift. That it will transform someone else’s life. I am not begging for someone’s money, I am offering incredible value. I think I have finally grasped a sense of worthiness about what I do.
I could go on. But today is the full moon in Aries. And what I want to do is use the energy of this full moon to step into my power by letting go of the past. It does not matter that I failed miserably so many times. What is success anyway? Most people talk about writing a book and never do it. I just did it. In less than six weeks. Most people talk about getting fitter but they don’t. I did it. I started running at 44 years. That’s an achievement I. Itself. My inner critic is so…. critical!!!!!
So today, on this powerful full moon, I want to invite you to let go of limiting beliefs and past hurts. Don’t be define by your past. Reinvent yourself. You are a powerful creator. I am a powerful creator. Let’s do it!
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(C) Ange de Lumiere 2016